I sit here and wonder if I will ever be consistently happy again. Will I ever smile or laugh or see a love movie and not think of him? Does this ever really go away? I tell everyone it gets better but does it really or do I just become numb from the pain? I don’t know. I’m not sure if I will ever know. I just have to believe that there is something more and something better than this. Better than him. I have to believe that because that hope is the only thing I have left.
she looks legitimately troubled
"Dear Child of Mine,
I know you long to give yourself completely to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But I want you to wait until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with Me alone. Until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found you will not be capable of the special human relationship that I have planned for you.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the best. Please allow me to bring it to you…you just keep pursuing Me. Don’t be anxious or look at the things I have given others or the things you think you want. You just keep looking at Me, or you will miss what I want to show you. When you are ready, I will surprise you with a better love than you can imagine.
You see, I am working even this minute to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me. I want you to have in the flesh the everlasting union of love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am God Almighty.
Your Loving Heavenly Father”